Lueurs de l'Aurore

─ 原來秩序一直是人為的產物，而混亂才是事物的本質。

─ 不論早上下午，只要來上一杯奶茶，就是個短暫的充電。
   而奶茶所代表的社會意義，更成為我對印度最深的鄉愁。

─ 看似較不文明和衛生的吃飯方式，卻讓我的手感受到了食物的溫度、觸感、彈性、
   溼潤度等等，也讓我推翻平時的輕蔑態度，更加專注於吃飯這件重要的事。

─ 每逢週休二日，都市的「遊民」開始蠢動，像蜘蛛網一般攻佔各旅遊點，
   享受鄉野之旅，洗滌一週疲累。當然，凡走過必留下痕跡，廢氣交給綠樹去解決，
   垃圾留給當地人，然後揚長回到都市，繼續又五天的金錢追逐戰鬥。
   幸好族人並不在意那一些黑煙與噪音，甚至還歡喜接受垃圾的存在。
   有遊客來消費，可以增加工作的機會，如果沒有這些有錢人來製造這些垃圾，

─ 我常常感到疑惑，為什麼？
   喜歡獨立思考的小孩，常被叫做怪胎。
   喜歡發表意見的小孩，常被說是搗蛋。
   喜歡躲在角落的小孩，常被說是孤僻。
   喜歡站上舞台的小孩，常被說是愛現。

─ 究竟是覺得世界有所缺乏，還是自己有所缺乏，才想要走出去服務?

─ 「那邊不是有人就是那樣一輩子生活著嗎? 同樣都是人，為什麼我不能跟他們生活的一樣?」
   我是用這樣的心態在前進的。不想把文明視作是絕對的善，
   也不願自己被文明所架構出來的便利給束縛，更不認為該以此為傲。
   只是很單純的想著，一樣生而為人，我並不想讓自己沒意識到的潛在價值觀，

─ 男人真正喜歡妳的話，他會讓妳知道。他會打電話，會想見妳的朋友，
   他的一雙眼兩隻手會粘著妳不放，等到上床的時機成熟，他不用人提醒就會急著脫衣服。

─ 管他有沒有性騷擾禁忌還是職場倫理，男人看上了職位比他高的女人，照樣會開口邀約。

─ 乍看之下他讓妳作主，事實上是他在決定要不要跟妳出去──甚至要不要回妳電話。
   別中了他的計，讓妳來開口邀約。男人想要妳，就會自己開口。

回國後，每當有人問起這趟旅行如何時，我總是立刻眼睛發亮猛點頭答：『超好玩！』但到底有多好玩，實在不是「超好玩」三個字可以完整表達的。

那是一個和原本的生活截然不同的世界。沒有柏油，只有坑坑巴巴的泥巴路，一下雨便泥濘不堪。沒有自來水，只有一口井，刷牙洗臉洗碗洗手全靠它。更沒有熱 水，除了不能洗澡，每天清晨還必須忍受鼻子快凍傷的風險掙扎著梳洗，然後在炎熱的午後相約一起到河邊洗頭。也時常沒電，即使白天屋內依然黑漆漆，但卻讓我 們有機會每天就著燭光享受浪漫晚餐，一抬頭便能望見澄淨的夜空和明亮的星星。每一戶人家都養了許多動物，吃飯時會有鴨子若無其事從旁經過，上學途中則充滿 了疑似造假的羊叫聲及不計其數、防不勝防的牛糞。每天，都有成群老鷹在天空中盤旋，每次放學，都會有成隊牛群與我們一起回家。我從來不知道，原來人與動物 之間，可以這麼緊密、這麼靠近。

我們很幸運，擁有一群善良且熱情的村民，將我們照顧地無微不至。知道我們喜歡喝Masala tea，便不厭其煩每天準備兩回，每一次喝茶，都讓我甜在舌尖，更甜在心裡。知道有人生病了，他們會買一大袋水果回來，讓病人補充營養，並在每次吃飯時偷 偷計算用餐人數，或是悄悄走到病人附近，觀察她有沒有好好進食。他們平常不太吃肉，但在發現我們對於晚餐有雞肉的興奮後，便努力想要滿足我們，甚至連開玩 笑的「海鮮」都認真想辦法取得，為的就是要確定他們有將這批「貴客」給照顧好。

他們對我們有十足的好奇心，喜歡圍觀著我們，看我們打牌，聽我們聊天，即使他們完全看不懂也聽不懂。他們還有驚人的耐力及體力，一支鼓就能讓他們連續唱歌 跳舞好幾個小時毫無間斷。雖然我沒有他們驚人的體力，也不敢像他們一樣直接把腳伸進火堆中取暖，但他們的單純、對生活的滿足，還有簡單的快樂都已經深深烙 印在我心裡。村民對待我們誠懇的態度，還有貼心的關懷，讓我覺得我好像已經在這裡生活了好久好久，要離開反而好捨不得。

這裡的小朋友，有著最單純、最無瑕的眼神與面孔。他們聽不懂我們說的話，我們也聽不懂他們的，但是最有效的溝通方法，就是誠意。我不確定在服務短短幾天的 期間內，我們能教授並留下多少知識，但我可以確定的是，我們能給他們滿滿的愛與關懷。愛與關懷靠眼神及微笑就能傳達，沒有語言障礙，而且不分年齡都能感受 得到。我依然記得第一天到幼幼班時，他們是用看外星人的眼神看著我們到底想要幹嘛，但後來，他們總是用期待的眼神，看著我們今天想要帶給他們什麼。每天早 上我最期待的事，就是對著一雙雙發亮的眼睛大喊Namaste，對著他們微笑，然後因為他們回應的可愛笑容而笑的更燦爛。我也記得服務的第一天，很抗拒我 們的小朋友。他抗拒的眼淚曾經讓我很挫折，但是幾天後，他參與了我們的遊戲，也終於有了開心的笑聲，他的笑容，讓我溫暖了好久好久。

“Before Sunrise” is a film mainly composed of the two major characters’ conversations, with many thoughts of love and life inside. The unfamiliar couple gets to know and even falls deeply in love with each other by asking questions mutually. Through their questioning and answering, we audience also have a great chance to contemplate on the essence of love and life, which are the two elements we often take for granted.

Time, or the length of time, is a very crucial factor to life and love in the thinking of the two characters, Jesse and Celine. They have a consensus that love is unbearable of time. Time will unveil the ugly part of a relationship unless people lie to each other to maintain peace and happiness on the surface. In order not to suffer the disillusion, a momentary love seems to be the most appropriate. The affair is just one fragment of the whole life, too short to discover the practical and disappointing part, just as what Celine mentioned that no Jesse’s friend will come to her and say something ill about Jesse in that the time is so short. You don’t have to take the burden of reality, but just enjoy love itself in that certain period. That’s why Jesse and Celine make an agreement that they should just enjoy the very night and not give out contact information. The affair is precious due to its transience.

Similarly, it is transience that makes life so precious as well. In Jesse’s description, compared to the planet, human life is so instantaneous and subtle. The whole life is as shift as a mere second. According to Celine, one’s life is just another’s memory, for the duration of a life is short, so it can be condensed into a person’s memory, containing all pieces of life. On the other hand, though, one’s memory can also represent another’s life. In the cemetery, Celine states that if none of one’s family or friends knows one is dead, it is not like really being dead then, which means that the concrete length of life is limited, but it can continue going on in others’ mind. When other people are inventing a person’s fortune, the person can’t be called vanished.

Nevertheless, regardless of others’ imagination, life itself is so short that we should cherish and take advantage of time well instead of always wasting the saved times owing to technology on busy works without using it properly. Jesse and Celine, having known life’s transience, both anticipate figuring out the meaning of life in essence. They discuss about religion, fate, birth, and death to exchange their explanations and perspectives of life. Let alone the objects or the summaries of their discussion, their interaction with each other is already a way to define life deeper. They develop their own philosophy by contemplating alone, but understand themselves better by interacting and exchanging opinions with each other. In Jesse’s view, excelling in some way is more accomplished than just being in a nice and caring relationship at the end of life. This idea corresponds to Celine’s original pursuit that she wants to be a strong and independent woman rather than revolves her life around some guy. But paradoxically, everything they do in life is to be loved a little more. Loving and being loved means a lot to them even though they often make fun of it. They don’t want to end up their life as the way the old man does whom Celine has worked for. People actually don’t want to be so lonely, and that’s why some people get into a relationship with other people just to escape from loneliness.

In the end, it seems that both Jesse’s and Celine’s perspectives toward life and love have changed. At first, Celine thinks that it would be a blessing if a person can lives and dies namelessly, but she might has changed her mind after the romantic and unforgettable night. Contrary to the former notion that the shorter the love is, the better the precious things will remain, Celine expresses that she can really fall in love with a man who she has been with for a long time and understands in depth without any disgusting or impatient feeling, and if the moment comes, it will definitely be true love. In other words, time will not be the cause of disillusion or the poison of love anymore when it is true love, and perhaps it is the very reason for their change of decision on separating eventually.

─ 好幾年前書本的世界就已經出現銷售本數驚人的暢銷書。
   這是出版業界的「一極集中」(出現一本獨賣、銷售驚人暢銷書的情況)。
   大家有偏好簡單訊息的傾向；而且厚臉皮地追求情緒上的『感動』和『淚水』。
   這表示我們都太過要求書籍給答案。就是這種「快告訴我答案」的態度，
   讓為政者橫行霸道、飛揚跋扈。所以我們需要的是停下腳步，例如：透過對話，練習思考的方法。

─ 旅人對待自己城市的態度像個老太婆追憶起自己的青春。
   無論當時過得如何慘綠，怎麼難受，如今都只剩下珍惜的情緒。
   述說起來時，便無法抑制地叨叨絮絮，每個生命情節都拿放大鏡去觀賞，
   賦予過度的意義，似在撰寫歷史課本上的世界大事般慎重。
   因為，那是你親身活過來的。好，壞，都是你的。有一種說不清楚的情感，

─ 獲利不是唯一的指標，捐錢也不代表企業社會責任的完成。

─ 一棟建築可以強調頂級奢華，但有可能像杜拜曇花一現；

   而一座教堂可以簡陋，但因為人的信念在裡面，它支撐起來的，就是一種輝煌。

─ 「我從頭到尾都不覺得觀光是賺錢的工作；我始終認為，『觀光』是台灣在政治走不出去時，